Gonna be honest – I’ve been thinking about deleting my blog.
Whenever I’m unhappy with something, I tend to catastrophize and immediately make drastic decisions – which, admittedly, is stupid. I sat down with the intention of writing a little post about the past year, and I just can’t find the energy to do it. I don’t know if I’m dealing with writer’s block or what, but I feel like I haven’t written anything worth reading in months. I’m sitting on a slew of unfinished games, which isn’t typical of me – I like to finish the games that I start. I still haven’t completed Ace Attorney, Pokémon Brilliant Diamond, or Fatal Frame, though I’ve had plenty of time to do so. I don’t know, man. I’m in a weird headspace.
The extra pressure of feeling like I need to approach gaming from the perspective of “I need this to produce content for the blog in some way, shape, or form” has also been bumming me out. I’m not committed to deleting anything just yet, but I am going to take a break (from my exhaustive schedule of one post a month). Ideally, I’ll get over whatever-this-is and come back in the new year. I’m hoping taking my time to enjoy gaming again (especially since I was finally able to find a PS5). Maybe playing some new titles in 2022 (Elden Ring?) will make me excited to write again. For now… I don’t know? I guess this blog is taking a nap.
So I guess this is (probably temporary) goodbye. It feels weird to write this, but technically this is my blog, and I do want to share what I’m thinking (even if it’s negative). I genuinely want to thank everyone I’ve met here on WordPress for following, reading, and commenting on my stuff – I appreciate every single interaction I’ve had here. I do hope to be back in the new year, and I’ll still be reading other people’s posts. Also want to take this time to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and a happy new year! Bye for now!
Meghan Plays Games 
I can fully sympathize with those feelings and frustrations.
Return or no, I hope that things get better for you.
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Thanks, appreciate it!
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I can totally relate to what you’re saying. Sometimes, I put too much pressure on myself with my blog, even though it’s just a hobby. If you decide to return, I’ll look forward to reading more of your posts. Regardless, I wish you well and happy holidays.
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I didn’t realize how many people felt the exact same way, haha. Thank you so much, and I hope you have a lovely holiday as well!
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Definitely go have some fun with your PS5 and just play something for yourself for a bit.
Leave the blog up if you can though, and don’t ever worry about time having passed if you ever get the urge to come back. It’s never too late, and we’ll all be here waiting.
Having said that, I do hope that a quick leave of absence is enough to get your batteries recharged and ready to go again. 🙂
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If you end up wanting to just change things up — either in how you cover gaming, or to include other topics entirely, that’s also 100% awesome and might be worth considering too!
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Thanks so much, Naithin! I think I’ve moved past my “all or nothing” mindset to the point where I’m comfortable leaving it up. Really hoping for inspiration to strike at some point in the new year.
I hadn’t even considered those other options, so I appreciate the suggestion – will definitely think about it. Hope you and your family have a happy holidays/new year!
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Relating to a lot of this. It’s been a struggle, even more than usual, to find the…I dunno, motivation? right headspace to get much of anything written the past 9 or so months? I know I still enjoy doing the blog thing, but this year has felt all over the place mentally and I’ve found myself diving headfirst into games(I’ve actually finished a few JRPGs this year!) and sitting down to write a blog post is typically something that gets tossed in the “I’ll get to it later” pile.
Take care of yourself, first and foremost. Enjoy your new PS5! WordPress and everything else will still be here when you’re ready. 🎮
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Good to know I’m not the only one feeling this way! I don’t know if it’s general burnout or what, but definitely lacking the motivation and desire to write anything. Congrats on those JRPG’s though, that’s fantastic!
I’m kind of looking forward to gaming without having anything looming over me, but I do hope to be back at some point. Thank you for the encouragement, I truly appreciate it 🙂
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Same thoughts. At one point we go from “I’m writing about this stuff for fun and because I enjoy to talk about it” to “oh wow I don’t think my readers would like this” and “I don’t think this is worthy enough.” And that’s an unfortunate mindset! I also wanted to make a short post about the games I played this year… And I just… Didn’t? I’m glad to see I’m not alone in these feelings as well. Whatever you do, I hope the new year brings us inner peace ✌️
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It’s definitely a mindset I’m having a hard time dragging myself out of, but ironically, thanks to some Twitter drama I think I have one final post in me, haha. Ultimately, I think I’ll come back, just need a break for a while. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and the encouraging words 🙂 If you find the secret to inner peace, please let me know LOL.
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